I've been fighting the ugly depression monster lately, for quite some time really. My thyroid levels are elevated and so they've adjusted my dose. Again. And my doctor even suggested that I start back on anti-depressants. I'm not happy with that prospect and I appreciate that she left the decision ultimately up to me.
Apparently I haven't been very nice to myself lately because I got an email from my mom after one of my posts. I love her! She just gets me, she sees the best in me she knows who I really am. From now on I'm going to start doing a regular post that contains at least one good thing about me. For now, here's what she had to say:
Hi! Just read your blog. I don't know how to add a comment. I know, I know, I drive you crazy because I am so computer illiterate.
Okay, so I think, why would you want to run away from beautiful, wonderful you? I think you really want to run away from sick and miserable you. So I think you need to tell me 10 nice/good things about you. Remember when you and Jared were little and were so snotty to each other and I would make you say something nice about each other? Well, this is a version of that. Quit dwelling on the negative. Tell me 10 nice things about yourself - you know kind of like "name 10 fruits"!!!!!
Okay, so I'll tell you 10 things I love about you. If you can't add to my list, you can use some of my things.
1. You are beautiful - physically & emotionally.
2. You can think of the words that I can't! Better vocabulary - better memory.
3. You are kind to others.
4. You are thoughtful of others.
5. Your are nurturing. You take care of everyone - even your brother who probably doesn't deserve it. You take care of me and I do deserve it!
6. You are funny and witty and fun. Is that one thing or three?
7. You are smart. I am amazed at all that you know; about life, about people & relationships, about book smart stuff, about the scriptures. Oh, and you know more about computers than me.
8. You are spiritual - yes, you are - don't try to deny it.
9. You are loved - by your parents, your siblings, your niece and nephews, your aunts, uncles, cousins, cousin's wives, friends, co-workers, past co-workers, ladies in the 14th ward, and just about everyone that comes in contact with you.
10. You are spunky and irreverent. I know it sounds like that is contrary to #8, but it seems to work in you. You are such a fun mixture of sweet and sour, soft and strong.
3 comments:
I agree with your awesome Mom! I wanted to add a couple myself. You are talented in the kitchen (woo-woo!) in ways I can only imagine. Look at your wonderful creations.
Your laugh is highly infectious. I still hear it and love it!
Sometime that depression bug sneaks up on us. Just know you aren't alone and you have a GIANT support system.
You are everything and more. Don't forget we do all LOVE you!
Ah the ugly Depression monster. I too suffer from depression. I hate when I can't see anything good in myself and I hate the fact that I have to survive on Medication. Trust me though, I know and my family knows that without my meds I am the Monster.
You are awesome. You showed me support when I was going through my trials in October and I didn't even know you except through my brother. That is an AWESOME Trait! How great that you can be a good friend to someone you have never met. I really have appreciated your friendship.
I know that sometimes it feels like the world is out to get you. I have been there and revisit a little too often. I hope that you feel better soon.
Cynthia
I'm with your wonderful mom on this one. She's right. You are beautiful, funny, witty, sensitive, caring, and all around, just pretty amazing. I feel blessed to have you in my life. You always make me feel loved. I only want lots of happiness for you!
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